I've gotta be honest, I got a little bit of stage fright. I felt like Cindy Brady, staring at that red light from the camera, unable to move. What caused such terror, you ask? Well, first I peed...then I posted. Peed, then posted, then watched as over 4,000...ok, who am I kidding? Like I don't know the EXACT amount! 4,158 people read my post. Then retweeted and reposted 77 times. It was exhilarating! But then the pressure set in. I felt like there were expectations...assumptions...and other 'tions' that I can't quite think of right now, but I know they are there.
I've heard of this sort of thing happening before with actors, musicians, you know artsy folk like myself. :) You have a great first album and then you hit the Sophomore Slump. Michael Jackson once said that Thriller was his undoing because he spent the rest of his life trying to top it. Sometimes things just happen and we shouldn't try to top them. We should just enjoy the ride and move on. Easier said than done. I feel ya, Mike. Word. You had Thriller and I... I... I peed.
So hear me now and believe me later! From this day forward I shall write like nobody's watching! And dance like I can't hear the music...or run like I don't need the shoes...or some crap like that. YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING!! I can't always be your hero. I am just little old me. Just a girl, standing in front of a boy...computer, asking it to love her. :) (can you name that movie?! I will be impressed!!)
My goal for 2011 is to be here 3-4 times per week w/ my thoughts, wonderings and queries. It may not always be spectacular or thought provoking, but it will be honest and it will be me.
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